^ I decided to dedicate this journals titles after the opening title song to Maria Holic Alive due to be vastly entertained by this weeks 'Matsurika Holic' 

Its been quite a while since the last entry, mainly this is down to fuck ups by Livejournal not saving my drafts but in part its due to my own laziness and complacency. I'll try and get a detailed diary style entry up soon as there is quite a lot to save to the archives but for today I'm just doing a quick placeholder type quick entry to just increase my activity.

So anyway, to the questions...

Do you collect anything? If so, what do you collect, and what made you start your collection?
 At the moment the number of types I collect is quite limited due to lack of income and space, but on the flip side its probably a fair bit cooler than when I used to collect stamps and gemstones as a kid.

At the moment I'm building my Doctor Who (classic) DVD collection which is up to twenty-two complete stories with at least one for each classic Doctor. I do still need the 1996 TV movie with Paul McGann as the 8th Doctor before I have something for every completed Doctor. I don't really think I have to explain why I collect them, the show is my biggest non-sentient life passion afterall.If you could design your own planet, what would it look like and who would live there? Describe the colors, the creatures, and the culture.

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: calm music: Chopin - Nocturne Opus 9 No. 2 tags: quiz

Why konnichi wa (that means hello) everybody, I apologise to both myself and anyone who reads this for the long standing lack of entry, its not so much that I haven't done anything worth commenting, I just haven't found the willpower/urge to chronicle it, preferring to use my shiny new laptop for browsing forums, gazing greedily at things on amazon and for downloading a shed-load of anime.
 I'm just going to do today's entry about the events of last friday as it was quite a full day, I'll do a bigger entry tomorrow to talk about my trip to Bath, amigos time and all the other bigger things that have happened since the New Years.

 First up is just to mention the sad news of the passing of Nicholas Courtney, aka. Doctor Who's Brigadier Alastair Gordon Lethbridge-Stewart after a long battle with cancer. Courtney who made multiple appearances in both the show proper as well as the audio, was a great ambassador for the show and a regular face at conventions where he was widely acknowledge as a true gent by both fans and his peers alike. 
 For me personally this is a lot like hearing of the death of a childhood friend. OK, I never met the man, but the unflappable Brigadier was and is a favourite of mine, and his performance opposite the similarly lamented Jon Pertwee remain golden moments within both my own and Doctor Who's television history. 
 The tributes that have come in have really been sad to read including a very moving piece in Tom Bakers tribute to the man on his webpage, where he mentions visiting Nick in the hospital. Other bloggers have also joined in with one of the best tributes describing how "It is not everyone that can sell lines such as the famous “Chap with wings, five rounds rapid” while wearing a false moustache and facing a BBC stuntman in a grey leotard with false wings and a gargoyle mask but the late Nicholas Courtney could". As for my own tribute I'd like to think of him as a wonderful guy and a fantastic actor, and to steal someone elses comment on the gallifreybase forums "It somehow feels the planet's that bit less safe." 
                                                        
                                                                                               ----RIP The Brig. 1929-2011-----

Anyway, In terms of my own activities I'm only going to sum up the rather tempestuous day I had last Friday here and leave the Bath trip and V and Liz's trip up here to Yorkshire for another entry. 
To be frank I should have been given some advance warning on how hectic last Friday was going to be when after spending all night awake watching Maria†Holic so as to be able to get to Jobseekers on time the next day, I realised too late my jobseekers was 5 hours later than I thought and thus I could have had a welcome sleep. 
 So after a cold sleepless night I walked into town around 11am to meet up with V and Liz. That done we had a last walk around town together which was extremely pleasant, even if it made me a little sad to be losing them again. We had a look at the products on sale in the farmers market and V bought me a rolo muffin. After that we stopped in Waterstones and I picked up Rosario+Vampire volume 1 (manga) and illustrated my point to Verity about how if you look at GCSE guidebooks now the stuff in there looks incredibly easy. Then we headed to the Six Chimneys for food, and I had a nice, if a little lean, fish and chips with mushrooms courtesy of Liz and a pint of Polish Tyskie beer. 
 Shortly after that and much hugs later I waved them off, and set off to the job center, only to meet up with them straight after so I could get my muffin which I'd left with them. Overall it made me really sad seeing them off, going back to the place I so very want to be. The whole time they've been up has been really nice and comfortable which is odd seeing as I've never had someone not local visit me. In the past I've always preferred to visit than BE visited. It was a really nice week or so and was really what I needed.;

So anyway, Friday Night...
The Cast: BK, Anthony/Lunchbox, Ste P, Beccy, Sarah, Beccy's other sister I can't remember the name of so for the purpose of this entry I'm calling her 'Greta', Chris/Packlunch, Chloe.

Highlights
- Woke up around 7:15pm after having a sleep after getting back from getting back from seeing Verity and Liz off, met up with Lunchbox and set of to town to go to the Snooty Fox pub to see Steves band 'The Dirt' preform.
- On the way discussed what superpowers we'd have, I argued that I'd be torn between Deidaras clay explosive capabilities, or Magnetos magnetic ability (Naruto & X-Men respectively)
- Got to the pub and sat with the cast with a pint of John Smith's and made small talk while sulking over V and Liz going back down south.
- Got called on sulking by Chloe which surprised me because this was my first time meeting her and next to no-one knows my inner mood unless I tell them, or give obvious surprise. Needless to say I was a little impressed.
- Watched Steve's band and while it was enjoyable I still have a lot of the same feelings about them that I did when I saw them at 'The Black Flag' a month or two back. Mainly that the front man lacked presence and was way too effeminate to pull off that can't of music.
- I got asked by Sarah to look after Chloe and make sure she didn't go anywhere who by this point was very drunk. I accepted the quest and sat next to her to stop her from being able to wander off. This however caused her to collapse against me stroking my arm while I tried to ignore it while being very uncomfortable. This however did not stop Greta coming over and giving me a dirty look before asking me to move and giving me a dirty look, very much insulting both my pride and honour causing a bigger sulk.
- Then had to help Anthony escort Chloe into a taxi because Beccy and Sarah were worried about a guy who looked like Craig from Ideal. This then lead to a shouting match between Craig, Sarah and Beccy causing Craig to kick a puddle over both of them. This naturally really pissed me off and I had to be talked out of going over and head-butting him by Anthony and Beccy. Something that would probably would have got me barred from the Snooty but I felt he deserved. Afterwards we found out he has Autism and Beccy when over to smooth things over. I however still uphold he would have deserve a smack and than Autism is not an excuse for such outrageous behaviour.
- Had to leave the pub awhile after Chris showed because one of Greta's friends had claimed he was in the Green Berets, which is frankly a stupid lie as the British army doesn't have a Green Berets squadron any more. Naturally he got called on it, chased out the pub and caused everyone to be ID'd which both Chris and Sarah did not have on them ending the night prematurely.
- Before walking home went to get food while Chris very loudly fumed about his night being wrecked. This was then not helped when he was refused service at McDonalds causing him to repeatedly punch and break a traffic light while we travelled to Subways.
- Ended the night with watching Maria Holic at Anthony's which improved my mood after all the hassle of the night. In addition there is a character on the show called Father Tōichirō Kanae who we agree might actually be the most perfect anime resemblance of me yet.

Wow, The entry is actually finished, not bad to say I've been writing it on and off for two weeks now *palms forehead*. I'll be sure to update quicker in future. I still need to fill in what happened in the Bath trip and V+Liz's visit to Yorkshire. Thats a problem for another day however, and until then I'm going to spend the rest of the night sitting, reading my new Ouran Volume 3 manga and watching the rest of the anime To Love-Ru. So until next time, drive safe.

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: tired music: Kobayashi Yuu - Hanaji tags: anime, doctor who, liz, lunchbox, manga, rip, snooty fox, verity

 I'm getting extremely frustrated in recent days. I've been back "home" for about 4 months now and have been looking for work seriously for about 2 and a half months but so far every job type I'm suited to has no vacancies or I need previous experience or I need a car & driving license for *fumes*
 The most frustrating part is that I had nearly cracked the problem. I went for a really interesting job interview with R H Client Solutions in Leeds and... somehow... I managed to beat off people with two degrees and marketing experience in order to get the gig. Now for about a day or two as you can expect there was a spell of euphoria and exultation  but as you can probably tell that quickly soured. The problem was that for the first 3-5 weeks I had to work as a distributor for Miller-Patterson going door to door in Doncaster and trying to convince people to upgrade their existing home insulation. Now I don't generally like people, especially not people I've never met and when combined with the fact I don't like people being rude or insolent to me then you have a miasma in which I can not function. Then there's the fact the hours were massively tiring, I had to work 10am to 9pm Monday to Friday and 10am to 5-6pm on Saturdays, which effectively snipped what little social life I have left in the bud.  
So after a bright start and despite getting on really well with some of my colleagues (particularly Paul, Victor and Marcus) I decided the job was not what I was looking for despite the long term prospects of financial security. Now I'm not sure what that says about me but frankly I feel sullied and dishonoured by the entire fiasco. Its the first time I've failed at something that can only be attributed to myself I started since I pulled myself out of me malaise of drinking and hate after Dads death. As a result my pride and self worth have taken a sizeable blow and I'm having to fight off that dark side of my mind on a much more continual basis. 
 My best hope now is to build up my confidence and introspect on my plans and then launch my counter-attack after the festive period in January so I can finally start to move away from the cage I'm locked in for the moment.

 On top of the continuing problems with trying to find something to fuel my ambitions I've been having continuous problems paying bills with enough to cover travel for interviews and to cover a new classic Doctor Who DVD and tobacco in the process. With this in mind imagine the heart-attack I had when orange sent me a bill for what at the time looked like £140 for an overdue phone bill and failed direct debits. This I'm reasonably sure nearly caused a brain aneurysm from excess anxiety. In the end I got so tied up in knots Anthony had to pretty much take me completely in hand and help guide me through to phone call to Orange directly. In the end the letter was deceptive and my bill was actually around £95 which while not pleasant, was much more manageable. I ended up paying £50 up front and the rest goes out on the 9th. The good news is that this means I avoid messy bank entanglements and future payments, the bad news however is that I now cant afford to get people Christmas presents which means pretty much everyone I had planned to get something for (however small) will have to miss out. * Irritated* 

 The one snippet of good times I've had is that the last few days have seen a reasonably heavy amount of snow. Now, while this has led a few people I know to complain about none stop about it I've actually really enjoyed it. On a side-note why is it people always seem to complain about what I see as good weather (snow, rain, fog etc...) yet seem to dance around like a starving kid with an apple when its swelteringly hot and stupidly bright? (yes I don't like sun and heat, I find it irritating, so shoot me >.>).
 So yeah.... as I was saying.... its been snowing to such a good extent that it was just about knee high, meaning that it was high enough to have some fun with. Now, barring the handicap of not owning any gloves I've managed to be quite creative using the full power of my civilised, poetic and university educated mind. Well, that's at least what I'm saying is a pretext to the crafting of numerous snow penises and writing both 'The Team' and 'BK Fucked Your Mum' in 5 foot big letters. Its not all been sculpture though as me, Lunchbox and Chris took part in a rudimentary "Snow Olympics", I did quite well and won the balance beam, slalom race, foot race, hurdles and the forward roll events which made me overall winner. I got decimated in the pull ups by Chris though and was a little irked that the monkey bar event had to be scrapped.

Anyway that's all I can be bothered recalling and recording for today. I'll do another 'young-BK' tag on to the next entry (which I hope to get done in no more than three days). Anyway, I'm done, I'm going downstairs to watch Elfen Lied and eat mince pies. Champion. 

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: aggravated music: Little by Little - Kimi Monogatari tags: bills, interviews, job, phone, snow, sports

 Its been what seems like a small eternity since I last updated. 

I can recap everything thats happened in the last few weeks when I do my big update at next possible chance. The thing I wanted to bring to people attention today is good enough to warrant a stand alone entry.
 So now as most people know who have had the chance to speak to me on the subject, I am an absolute Doctor Who fanatic of both classic and new series. Since I was about 12 the only thing that's matched my zealous love of it has been the final fantasy series. I remember when I was a small kid, no more than eleven or so, that there was a 'bring your toys to school' day when I was at Rooks Nest Junior and Infants School. Most of the lads there brought model cars or action figures. I brought my original Dapol Dalek models and spent the majority of the day pushing them around shouting "Exterminate" at most of the other kids toys. (Yes, as you can probably tell I was not a popular guy that day *chuckles*) I remember getting in a bad temper that one of the model ended up with a crack in it after being carelessly knocked on the floor and spending most of the afternoon moping around being very anti-social.
 Its odd that out everything I used to be like as a kid the only thing I can remember being constant about me then, and me then is just how much of a Doctor Who fanboy I've always been. A lot of other things I used to like as a kid have either been forgotten about, dismissed or (like the old 'Animals of Farther Wood' TV show) been relegated to a position of faint nostalgia. Yet, Doctor Who remains one of my biggest simple joys in life and for that I'm thankful. I do wish my father had wished to see the show in all its reborn glory though, he was the reason I was introduced and fell in love with the program and he'd have loved it as much as I would. *sad sigh*

Time is such a fascinating and infuriating concept to me. If I'm 100% honest I remember very little about my life before I was 16 or 17 barring the very basics, the rest has been mainly recovered from echoes of things seen in pictures or a sketchy anecdote dropped by the people who knew me back then. As such in order to catalogue these rather hazy chunks of my past I'm going to be adding a about 6-7 anecdotes and observations such as the one in paragraph above so that both myself and the people reading know a little more about myself from the very early days. I'll just have to see what my mind can remember, and try and pick out snippets that are profound, or funny etc...

Now, to finish on a lighter note. In my very little net time I do come across some small gems on youtube which tend to amuse me for a second before moving on. I thought I'd share this one here however as a fair amount of people here might appreciate it, 


Now I love the New-Daleks (barring the jarring yellow colour) but that first 15 seconds or so is just brilliant. Anyway, that's all from me today. Expect a big update in the coming days. 

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: frustrated music: The Feeling - Helicopter tags: child bk, daleks, doctor who, past, school

^ A nod to a humorous segment I found online

In a very bad mood today. I quite literally woke up from the best dream ever and as such I'm now extremely irritated I couldn't have been made comatose so I could enjoy it forever. This doesn't really stack with how in the last couple of days I've been in a particularly bad melancholy/grumpy patch. Usual broken record in terms of what's bothering me but its getting worse daily at the moment. The most prominent feature is how I seem to be switching between extreme tearless self pity  and irrational irritation. Take this morning for instance.... even though I have several tasks to preform I lay around in bed wishes lamenting and brooding, before stomping around the living room moodily wishing the world would explode just so everything would stop. I've calmed down marginally since then but I'm still struggling to try and reclaim my usual sliver of emotional balance. 
 Inaction is really grinding my my gears. I sit doing sweet bugger all, powerless, alone and lost while seemingly every one else has fun with their lives, enjoying their existence. This doesn't help ease my bitterness and sorrow over everything that has happened. I feel physically less by my own weakness and inability while I become just a minor memory to most people I knew, only thought about rarely and as a novelty. 

 My last few days have been somewhat empty which perfectly synchronises with how my entire life is at the moment. I'm mainly trying to escape the doldrums through temporary distractions. I've been playing my new game Tropico 3 which while a good soaker of time and a decent play is never going to be considered a world beater. My new Doctor Who DVD 'Attack of the Cybermen' finally arrived on Monday and I watched it through with Anthony. It was very good and is a really underrated gem of the classic series, and further mystifies me on just how the Colin Baker era was is so underrated and under-appreciated. I also got the chance to watch 'Saw IV' and while it wasn't amazing was a decent watch that perhaps I'm guilty of writing off too much before hand. 

 The one big piece of relief I've had was by having a Loveless (anime) marathon yesterday. Needless to say I really enjoyed it and its shot up on my list of favourite anime. *Puts hand up* Now, I admit... I was didn't really pay too much attention to the story last time I watched a few episodes with Rhi quite some months ago, but after watching it yesterday in depth I have a whole new respect for just how well the characters are crafted and just how deep the plot is. The biggest realization I had was that I actually can really empathise and identify with Ritsuka, not in the being fawned by an older man way, but in the issues he has to face such as loss of memory and in trying to define his existence. That part in an early-ish episode where he has a Nietzsche book in particular struck with me, largely because I've been banned from reading Nietzsche because it makes me super depressive. So yeah, big points to Loveless for keeping me intrigued. 

  Anyway to stop further droning and complaining that's it for today. I'll update later providing I haven't blow up the world >.> 

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: crappy music: Nickleback - S.E.X tags: anime, depression, irritation, loveless

 Well I really don't know how really to begin to describe what happened at Anthony's house party last Saturday. It started really well, after picking up 12 cans of John Smiths Bitter I headed up stairs to find I was the last to arrive. So we started drinking and chatting. I largely didn't take a prominent role at first and was just happily drifting in between conversations having a laugh. Then I remember started a debate about if men or women have to work harder during sex which caused a little controversy but in a humorous way. Then I went through my usual drinking blip and started introverting quite badly... firstly because Beccy for some reason decided to rate all the guys in the room by the "looks scale" between 1 and 10 which is quite rude in itself. Imagine then, my hurt and horror to find that I only rated a 5.5 (below average) on said scale and was the second lowest in the room. Now as you can imagine, I was quite upset and had had my pride hurt. I myself consider myself in my most modest state of mind as a solid 7 (just above average) when I've made myself presentable, so being hit with below average really set me off in a dark place. This then wasn't helped when all the couples (Anth/Kate, Beccy/Ste and Chris/Clare) started getting all lovey-dovey and I had to go outside to brood in silence for a few minutes to collect myself. Only for Beccy to come out and get me to talk it out. I frankly wasn't in the mood and just told her I needed a few minutes to myself. 
 She then got extremely serious and asked if I was bothered by her and Ste sleeping together. I nearly choked on my drink laughing while assuring her its just my own unique problems. It was truely hilarious though, I mean... why would I be bothered? Any way that cheered me up enough to rejoin the festivities and normal fun time drinking and chatting continued for a while.

What happened next was probably the most bizarre thing I've experienced on a night out since a New Years Eve spent in Camborne about four years ago. Now just to put the events that follow in perspective, on the Camborne night out I was chatted up by a cute girl and invited to a party at her mates afterwards only to be interrupted by having to face down and threaten some jackass who was giving Brian a hard time, and then interrupted again by Joe running off from a second jackass causing trouble, which resulted in me and Brian legging it backto the O'Neill house in double time to track him down. 
 Right, so.... Last Saturday. Like I said, after my blip I went back inside to a good night. Then out of nowhere Ste and Beccy got in a wild row which resulted in me having to restrain Steve from staring her down face to face by locking his hands behind his back. This was then unhelped when the argument further escalated and Beccy punched Ste twice on the nose drawing blood. I then lost control of restraining Ste due to Anthony unhelpfully deciding to try and help by trying to help restrain Steve by bear hugging both of us while Kate calmed Beccy down. This in turn caused me to lose my grip meaning Ste began prying my left index finger back to try and make me let go. I didn't and as a result thought I'd broken my finger because it couldn't move properly when he eventually got free. 

 I then had to calm down Chris and Shires who where ready to try and smack Steve and told them to leave it to me and Anthony and that they should go back inside and look after Kate and calm down. I then came outside and downstairs again to find Anthony had lost his temper and was shouting at Ste and Beccy to calm down, go home and talk about it in the morning. 
 The only problem is Ste refused to go home without getting his stuff back from Beccy's which resulted in a fiasco with a taxi where both of them refused to get in. Then it nearly broke high water mark as Beccy decided to call the police. This resulted in me having to stand in the freezing cold with two hysterical people making sure they didn't wind each other up or do anything rash. Then the police showed up and me and Anthony tried to assure them diplomatically that there was no big issue, that Ste hadn't indirectly assaulted me and Anthony and that this was a very startling one off. Ste didn't help this by swearing repeatedly and by taking such a gung-ho view of the situation,neither did Beccy and her hysterics. In the end the police gave Beccy a lift home, and we calmed Ste down enough to take him back upstairs to sleep it off. Afterwards me and Anthony walked Kate back home while congratulating ourselves for getting through the whole ordeal without Ste being arrested or any one else kicking off. 

What a massive waste of a good night out, I'm even more surprised that I was the only one who didn't lose my temper and stayed calm. Its not often I'm the sole voice of reason in a group *sigh*

 Now this is going to sound incredibly selfish but meh, its my journal. 

I am SO fucking sick of dealing with over peoples problems. I mean after this fiasco and the recent one with Chris and Claire a mere few weeks ago I've had it. Why the fuck, when people drink do they become violent, argumentative and overly fond of confrontation. Now when I drink and get in a bad place I'm not perfect. I become self absorbed, moody, brooding and melancholy. Yet all those things only affect me and usually can pass by everyone else unnoticed. I don't disrupt any one elses night when I have a bad turn when I'm drunk. I deal with my problems.... well I run, hide and feel bone sick sad about them but that's not the point. I harm and upset no-one else drinking with me. Why the fuck other people can't be as courteous I have no idea.  If they can't handle the bad things that happen when they drink without any self control, then they shouldn't be allowed to get that drunk. It would save me and everyone else whose had to deal with this kind of thing no end of hassle >.>

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 Luckily the rest of the week has been more quiet and I've been given ample time to calm down. Everything else is just miscellanea so I'm just going to bullet point what I've been wasting my time doing. 

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Watched an oldish cyberpunk anime called Armitage III: Poly-Matrix. It wasn't that bad... it had a lot of the things I don't like about futurist/science anime but it was a decent enough story if somewhat un-thought provoking. It was an enjoyable watch though. I've also been taking the chance to give a rewatch to the Loveless anime which got me some sideways looks from my little brother Edward after I told him it was "borderline yoai". My own fault prehaps for watching it in the living room on the massive television. He did seem quite interested by the entire spell battle thing though.
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I finally completed Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2 after completing the remaining Special Ops on Veteran with Packlunch (completed 'Big Brother', 'Wetwork", 'Armor Piercing' & 'Snatch and Grab'). This becomes the eighth game completed to 100% on my XBOX360 hardrive.
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I got my second jobseekers payment on Wednesday and have used £15 as disposable income in order to buy a new game for my 360 called 'Tropico 3' as well as my fifth classic who DVD, 'Attack of the Cybermen' featuring Colin Bakers Sixth Doctor. The game arrived on Friday but i'll review it in my next entry, I'm still waiting for the DVD and hoping it arrives on Monday

 Anyway with that done I'm going to head out for the rest of the night, apparently Stringer has got hold of the complete Dads Army DVD set so I'm going to head over for a spell and watch it with him. Na-night.

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: bitchy music: Boys Like Girls - Love Drunk tags: anger, anthony, arguments, beccy, brooding, call of duty, drinking, gaming, police, ste

 The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. (If writing isn't your shindig, do icons or something?)
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I'm more than happy to write a short segment on any pairing or character picked, to be honest I could use the practice while I'm waiting for my laptop to be fixed so I can continue with my novel. 
 PLEASE be tolerant, if you don't want word spew at least give me some degree of patience and time and I'd rather not disgrace myself by doing really badly at my first attempt in years at doing something out of my writing comfort zone.
 PLEASE be understanding and try and meet me half way on your choice, Please pick a character or pairing in something I know or can comfortably research. As much as this might spoil the fun, I refuse to have to watch 2-3 series of TV or Anime or have to read several books of manga volumes to even begin to understand the full nature of the characters. 
 FEEL FREE to suggest characters from Anime, TV, Manga, Book or Video Games but please regard what I've said above.

If you want a writing segment comment this post and tell me what you want, I'll then get back to you and terll you if I'm able to do that particular character or pairing. As I confirm what I'm taking on I'll edit and list them below. 

(I know the chain says to do ten, but I only really have time for five unfortunately on my current timescale.)

01.)  WatanukixDoumeki (for Rhi) ---- Pending
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(On a side note, I'll try and do a proper entry tomorrow. So feel free to tune in next time for Drinking, Ankle Injuries and Police Statements. ONLY in BK's journal!)

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: hungry music: Avantasia - Carry Me Over tags: chain, writing

^ Quote from the anime Trinity Blood character Abel Nightroad (Episode 3)

 I am not a happy person at the moment. I've had a very antagonising couple of days. I had a job interview yesterday which had put me in a very good mood the day before, its really annoying that I couldn't have been left to enjoy that feeling of excitement just a little bit longer. So I got the phone call for the interview while at Stringer and Lunchbox's flat and as you can expect I was quite pleased. Now want to know what got me riled up. Stringer got me riled up that's what. I told Stringer and Chris I'd got the interview, Chris was immediately congratulatory, but Stringer, he just sat there like a sour toad and started harping on about why he can't get interviews like that, now when I said its graduate recruitment only he then started ranting about how going to university means fuck all. Now I choose not to get angry despite his rudeness and insult, its then he goes on to say how he's going to be selling his music to Square-Enix at some point in the future. I (now a little irked) bluntly pointed out it was not going to happen, and that I'd like to get published by Orbit but its probably not going to happen. Cue, sullen sulking from Stringer.  
Now, I thought the matter was over and had headed home to print out a fresh CV and sort out my suit for the interview the next day. I'm at the tail end of that when I get this text from Stringer.

"Dood your whole im better than you so fuck off attitudes wearing a little thin and its got out of hand since you went to uni stop treating me like im not good enough to be your friend you hurt me feelings earlier tone it down a bit"
(BK: Yes I know, not one single punctuation mark *rolls eyes*)

Naturally I was furious... Don't get me wrong I'm more than aware I have my faults and I know I can seem extremely arrogant and dismissive of people at times but when its pointed out if I think I've gone too far I will apologise when I have upset someone unjustly. Quite recently Chris pulled me aside and pointed out one of my jokes had actually quite annoyed him and I thus apologised and all was cleared. Its just the pigheadedness of the text that riled me up. I f anything he had been the one agitating me, claiming my degree is worth the same as his three GCSE's at C level or above (He claims to have more but I've seen his results). It was just really insulting that I was that being accused of shit that he was even more guilty of and the fact. The guys not even winding me up, he's winding everyone around him up up here, Chris is sick of him, Anthony's really getting annoyed, Beccy's openly criticising him, heck even Wildcards starting to lose his patience. So I tried to just ignore it mostly but couldn't resist bluntly texting him back the words "Its not my problem". Probably my own fault for rising to it, but then I get another text a few minutes latter which was equally irritating.

"Theres that attitude again man im not saying change who you are i accept that your a bit like that but if your not willing to tone it down i duno man i dont want to lose friendship after 10 years"

Now, bluntly... who the fuck does that little toad think he is? Trying to coerce me into feeling bad for something I'm not guilty for, having the gall to say I have too much attitude? He's fucking lucky I have known him so long, if most people had have done that to me I'd have instantly just blanked them indefinitely like I do with Dave after his betrayal. I love most of my friends well enough but I don't even let my own mother talk to me like that, at the end of the day everyone has a line for some its just further away than most. but he is getting extremely close to crossing it. I elected to just ignore him for a period. Now after an hour when it became clear I wouldn't text back he texted me again saying that I should at least take it into consideration and that we could work it out herbal remedies at some point.
 Like I would want to smoke with someone who has disrespected me that much in such a short time period >.>
Now I got so riled up I eventually cut off my interview preparation earlier to head out to Anthony's for a cigarette and TV. Now here is where this damaged my interview. 1) I was in such a mini-frenzy that I forgot to print off the location on google maps of where I was having g the interview the next day. 2) Because I was in such a bad mood I couldn't switch off to sleep until 4am, meaning I got up at 10am the next day. Two hours later than planned. 

Now, as you've probably guessed the interview didn't go well. Well, to be more precise I set off for it but I was fifteen minutes late by the time I found the building due to having to relying on the botched directions the company had emailed me which where very cryptic without a google map to accompany it.  The even more annoying thing is that once I'd found the place it turned out to be only ten minutes away from Leeds Bus Station, meaning that with a map I'd have arrived a good 10-15 minutes early. *fumes* Now, I have to restart again from square one and scour for suitable jobs.
 This bad mood also wasn't helped by having to be up again at 7:45am the next day for my 9:15am Job seekers signing on meeting. Now to the casual reader looking in this might not look like much, but I haven't been up for two days straight before 10am in at least a year which left me feeling oddly drained and tired all day despite calling it a night at 1am. I also can't stand going to the job centre to sign on, its not too bad... its mainly that I loath sitting next to the truly common rabble that I usually have to sit with, all donned in tracksuit bottoms and with a faces that are like a turnip pulp. Ah well, at least its done and out the way with for the next two weeks. I might treat myself a little next week, not much because I don't have a lot to spend, but a new game and a new classic Doctor Who DVD would be very welcome at this juncture. 

 Now just to finish off and partly to disprove the suggestion I may have implied that everything has gone to shit because of the last few day. Here are a few things that I'm particularly looking forward to.
* Anthony's throwing a party tonight which should have the entire pre-university group barring Nikki in attendance. I'm popping over early to help clean the place a little but I've already placed dibs on the beanbag chair and have a good £10 to get drunk with if it will last. If not, hopefully someone else won't mind lending me a few drinks until I can reimburse them on Wednesday. The only downside is Stringer may be in attendance, but to be honest it stills looks to be a good sociable night. 
* I found out a couple of days ago that the new book in the Wheel of Time series 'Towers of Midnight' is due out on November 2nd and will have some important Mat Cauthon chapters. The best part is that as I get paid my jobseekers on the 27th of October I can probably afford it buy it straight away, unlike with the previous book 'The Gathering Storm' where I had to wait agonisingly for months. 
* The sheer number of great titles that are coming out between now and Christmas for the XBOX360 that I want, while some are already out I'm eagerly awaiting having a nice bit of disposable income free so I can buy a few. The games include potential classics such as 'Dead Rising 2', 'Force Unleashed 2', 'Fable 3', 'Call of Duty: Black Ops', 'Fallout: New Vegas'. Plus there's a new 'Castlevania' game and 'Sims 3' out around the same time period. Add that to the list of games I'm already wanting to get and you have a veritable conundrum of which game to get next.
* After taking a small break from watching anime I've begun watching the anime 'Trinity Blood' which means I at least have something new to watch for a decent amount of daylight hours. I'm not sure what to make of it at 8-9 episodes in, Anthony/Lunchbox says he really loves it but for me it seems to blow hot and cold from episode to episode. Its not exactly that it's anywhere near bad. It can be quite funny, serious and visually impressive for good amounts of time. Its just doesn't have a big wow factor in my eyes, it seems decent enough, but hardly a must watch anime. 

 That's all I have time for today, I'm going to go have some food to prepare for tonight's party so ta' ra

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: aggravated music: Last Alliance - Shissou tags: anger, anime, books, gaming, interview, leeds, stringer, trinity blood

^ A nod to Jace Everett's song 'Bad Things' which is the opening title music for the TV show True Blood.

 Good news, I have a job interview with OMS LTD for tomorrow which to be frank I'm hopeful I get. The job is basically marketing work which is nowhere near what I want to be doing in the short term, let alone for a career choice. Yet in many ways if I do get this job tomorrow I'll be nicely content for the while because It will draw an end to the listless daily apathy that my life has transformed into during the last few months. The wage is also quite good and is nicely in my target range for what I need in order to organise my return back down to the South-West in a year and a half's time at 14-20k per annum. Heck, if I get it this will advance my stratagems quite nicely.
 Otherwise life is alright, I'm trying to keep myself occupied and doing fine with that but overall there are a few tendrils of discontent creeping in when I don't have anything occupying my mind.  

 I've had quite a good few days socially however despite the periods of unease. I met up with my favourite coz and had a good two or three hours just chewing the fat about various things over a pot of tea. Over than that I've been at my usual afternoon haunt a fair bit, and by that I mean chilling with Anthony and Chris. We were joined by Ste and Beccy for a while on Saturday night which was actually quite fun. For the first time since I got back Beccy didn't have a single pop at me, indeed for the most part we were all just voicing exasperation with Stringer's antics recently. 
 I also got advised to watch a couple of things by Anthony, both of which turned out to suck dildos. First was a watching of an oldish film called 'Guyver: Dark Hero' which to be frank was bloody awful and hardly worth sitting through. The second thing I was made/convinced to watch was an anime called Afro Samurai, which, to be frank... was just plain terrible. Now don't get me wrong I like action and fight scenes as much as most other guys but that didn't make up for just how disastrous both the characters and the plot was. The whole production was jaw achingly shoddy from start to finish, and frankly If something has a poor story, there's little chance I'll like it. 
 I also had a good sit down and got to enjoy a new classic who DVD courtesy of my first royalty check/job-seekers payment. In the end I elected to go with 'The Claws Of Axos' which is one of my favourite Third Doctor stories and a pretty solid story from  his era, containing all of the stock ingredients for a Third Doctor Story. I reckon I'll buy a Tom Baker DVD next and for the moment I'm zeroing in 'The Robots Of Death' because it has Leela as companion ^.^

Lastly, as I have been watching a lot of anime since I got back to Yorkshire I decided to take a small break. Its not that I'm not happy at discovering good anime like Mushishi or  Grenadier, I just don't want to watch too much too fast. After a little thought I elected to watch something new, that I barely had any knowledge about rather than watch an old favourite like 'House' or 'How I Met Your Mother'. In the end I decided to watch True Blood after having a fond memory of watching the first episode in this entry. Overall I quite like it. Its well produced, thought provoking and has a well layered story. The characters are all mostly interesting and easy to identify and empathise with. The only exception being Jason however who just frustrated me a little bit. Overall... probably a good solid 7/10. Its not brilliant but it is good entertainment, and I'll happily watch the second series in due time. 

 Anyway that's me more or less done with the report on my daily dealings. I'm going to call it now so I can get my stuff together for my job interview tomorrow. It won't take too long, its just making sure I have a clean suit as my main one is still in need of a wash after 'International Suit Up Day' last Wednesday (13th) after that I just need to print out a fresh CV and have a nice hot bath.
 I'm just hoping tomorrow goes well to be honest, wish me luck :)

location: 60 Wilson Drive, Outwood mood: hopeful music: Jace Everett - Bad Things tags: beccy, coz, doctor who, interview, true blood